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hafizah 300989 just average girl next door and extremely petite. don't ever make me mad because trust me,you won't like it. and that is all you need to know. click here for great bargains! friendster
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
as much as i want to get rid of the things i won't start wearing/don't wear anymore,being the lazy ass that i am,procrastination always gets the better of me.so nisa and nadirah,please do give me more time. i'm sorry ): dearest is right.if i was a guy,i think i won't really care about doing romantic things for my girlfriend because it takes too much effort.thank god i'm born a girl then. speaking about efforts,only God knows whether i truly deserved the heart-wrenching,agonizing wrath that struck me three weeks ago like i was given a tight slap.maybe a slap is an understatement. i may not be the best girlfriend,but i try.maybe it's just not good enough for you,i can't comprehend. i find it so tough to let it go.because people don't just say things like that to other people who's been with them for almost two years.i'll forgive and forget it if you've said it once.but it seems like it's not just something that you THINK you say because you're angry.personally,i don't think it's solely because of anger.subconsciously you've been feeling that way all along or else why would you have said such things over and over again in every argument?a million,trillion apologies can never change the fact that you've mentioned them countless of times.yes i need to change my mindset to let it go.but until then,it will still remain in my memory.and i was surprised that you couldn't remember what you've thrown at me verbally.i guess guys will always be guys. so that's my cue to start changing myself for the better.i've my fair share of undesirable moments where according to you,i treat you like some kind of "punching bag" or i think for myself more than i do for you. and yeah i do agree with you that i have a big ego for a girl and i need to work on that. to kickoff the change,i'll stop being dependent on you from now onwards because i've figured that it's killing us both. |